confessions of a 20s paradox

the hilltop, the sea

Created 24 December 2023 at 19:44

Nov 16 • 

soph

6

1

July 2025

august

31/07/2023

Jul 31 • 

soph

17

1

3

Rotten Desire

It feels so wrong for a thing so ugly

Jul 27 • 

Maheen

41

4

12

the hurricane candle

maybe in another life you’d be a person but I can see all you want to be is the sun

Jul 4 • 

soph

2

June 2025

Lover, you shouldn't come over

How lucky I am to feel so much, I say through gritted teeth as I wipe the blood from my lip.

Jun 25 • 

soph

29

1

12

May 2025

To Dream as a Coward

Make me brave, so that I may live for the first time.

May 31 • 

Maheen

17

1

2

answering the call through the candyfloss

I will not waste my life being my own helicopter parent. If I am fragile then I will let myself break and I will put myself back together again.

May 8 • 

soph

21

7

6

painted windows

the rumbles of distant cars float through the black into my bedroom window

May 1 • 

soph

25

4

4

March 2025

the paint strokes of a romantic fraud

closure for my teenage heartache: a desire to be loved should never outweigh a desire to live

Mar 21 • 

soph

99

27

25

Religion for the Ugly

Has my ugliness deemed even my worship unfit for you, Lord?

Mar 12 • 

Maheen

37

10

10

i burnt my hand so hard the skin grew into the bandage, and now i forgive myself for every love i'll ever mourn

understanding why I cling to everything, with a breakup halfway through.

Mar 8 • 

soph

174

39

36

February 2025

shards, please

For months after I last saw him, I was the audience, the glass, and the performer, all at once.

Feb 25 • 

soph

23

2

2